4+ Months Talking To Ghosts

Hey,

In my last post about the “Unseen”, I said that I would post my next update at the new house. However, I’m still at my old house. The moving process has been dragging on long. Sometimes, I feel like abandoning it but I won’t stop because I need a change of scenery like a breath of fresh air. But anyway, since the move is taking longer than I expected, I’ll do an update. 

As usual, I haven’t been talking to the “Unseen Team” as much as I’d like. I found time in my schedule to connect with them, but life regularly gets in the way. Whether it’s a lack of privacy, catching up on rest, focusing on other priorities, or me simply forgetting, most days I don’t talk to them. Yesterday, for example, I did speak to them but I could’ve spent more time with them. I had free time and wanted to write this update as well as connect with them. Hopefully, they’ll understand.

The other week, I was thinking about what my plans were for the “Unseen Team” and what we could possibly do together but then I paused. I started to compare my plans to my belief in prayer (If you don’t already know, I don’t believe in traditional prayer).To me, if something is destined to happen, it will happen, whether you pray or not. So, I don’t use prayer for “making wishes” or asking for help. I just talk to God similar to how I would talk to any other person. 

I wasn’t always like this. My perspective on prayer changed after the deaths of my Aunt Rachel and Aunt Penny, which happened very close together. I’ll never forget how much prayer surrounded them during their illnesses. Our church prayed constantly for them, and because we fellowshipped with many other churches in the area, I knew countless prayers were going up to God for them. In my head, there was no way they were going to die. I mean, these were good, God-fearing people. 

I’ll also never forget visiting Aunt Penny in the hospital. She could barely speak anymore, but she managed to say one word repeatedly, “Jesus, Jesus, Jesus…” It was the last thing I ever heard her say. Yet, she passed away and Aunt Rachel too. I was torn up about it. Their deaths forced me to reevaluate my beliefs. I thought we were going to witness a miracle. I thought there was going to be a great testimony. They didn’t die because of a lack of faith or prayers. They died because it was God’s will.  

For a little bit, I thought the Unseen Team might be able to influence things, but I remembered, in the end, God’s will is what’s being done here. So, my plans for the Unseen Team shifted. I’ll continue to connect with them- just not with hopes of them doing my will. I’ll talk to them simply to build a relationship, just as I would with the people in my normal life.

My relationship with the Unseen Team and the deaths of my aunts both remind me of the truth: what’s meant to happen will happen. All I can do is be authentically me, keep hope alive, and keep building connections, both seen and unseen.

Love,