Sobriety Update

Six months ago, I made a decision to stop drinking and smoking.

I looked at my patterns and my health and realized: if I kept going at the pace I was, I wouldn’t live as long as I could—and I want to live. I want to be here for my kids, my future grandkids, my family, and the world. Life has its rough points, but overall, it’s a blessing. Every day is a chance to make the world better. And I don’t want to waste mine.

For a long time before sobriety, I used to say, “Life shouldn’t be done sober.” It always got laughs, but I meant it. Life is hard for everyone- especially for those who carry a lot. I believed we deserved relief. That belief made sense to me for years.

But then something shifted.

I started learning about the human magnetic field and how powerful our bodies really are. We don’t just exist, we radiate. Our emotional state impacts our magnetic field in real, physical ways. And if your field is strong enough, you can shift the energy of a whole room just by walking into it.

Your magnetic field is your boundary. And using substances comes at the cost of its strength. When I learned that substances distort that signal and weaken the field, I knew I didn’t want to keep distorting mine. I want my full power.

I want to scatter negative energy just by being present. I want to stand next to someone having a bad day and boost their mood without saying a word. That’s why I’m committed to keeping my field strong and coherent. And sobriety allows me to do that.

It’s been a tough journey. I’ve relapsed recently and am currently 9 days sober. I’ve had days I was proud of myself, and other days I just wanted to feel that comfort again. But either way, I’m still here. I’m still showing up for myself. I don’t expect this road to be easy. But I know it gets easier, as long as I keep choosing it.

One moment I’ll never forget happened a few weeks ago. My sister texted me on her birthday, “Bring me a pint of Bacardi.”

I was nervous to go. But I also wanted to test myself. So, I went to the liquor store, walked in, bought it, and left. No conflict. No temptation. No drama.

That might not sound like a big deal but for me, it was a turning point. A year ago, I would’ve bought one for myself too. A few months ago, just walking in that store would’ve tempted me. But that time, I didn’t want it.

There’s a quote I came across recently that really stuck with me:

“Get the mind right, the body will follow.”

Greg Plitt

That’s exactly what these past months have been about- retraining my brain; one craving, one day, one trigger at a time. I’ve been learning how to reset, how to celebrate, how to grieve, how to live, without substances. And even though I did relapse, I’m back on track.

Sobriety hasn’t been perfect- it’s been real. 

Thanks for being here with me, whether you’ve followed my art, my journey, or just landed here for the first time. I’m still learning. Still growing. Still showing up. And now choosing coherence every day I can.

Love,